You got questions? I've got answers!

So my brain is fried from grad school homework - but I'm trying to find some type of routine with my blogging again. Hence - here you have random questions and meaningless answers!

1. What’s a nickname only your husband calls you?
Babyluv - He started calling me that when we starting dating... and now, eight years later, he still throws it out there from time to time. I still love it...

2. What’s a weird habit of yours?
Lord, where do I begin!? Let's see, I color-code my Skittles and eat them in the order of least favorite (the ones that taste like Lemon Pledge) to most yummy (the orange, of course!) :) Doesn't everybody do this!? What else is weird!? Oh - I have a specific order to getting dressed, which my husband tried to throw a wrench in earlier today! Socks & underwear first, then pants, then bra and finally shirt. Again - doesn't everybody do this!? :P

3. Do you have any weird phobias?
I don't know about phobias but I get really freaked out by supernatural movies. They are interesting and entertaining - but I'm always scared that it's going to bring bad spirits into my life. Like, if I see a demonic movie at the theatre, it's somehow going to come home with me -- or if I watch an exorcism movie at home, it's going to somehow open "pandora's box" of spirits. Is that nutty!?

4. What’s a song you secretly LOVE to blast & belt out when you’re alone?
Hmmm... probably ghetto or raunchy rap songs. Like "Can I Get a What-What?" by Jay-Z or "Forgot About Dre" by Dre & Eminem or "What's Your Fantasy" by Ludacris... 

5. What’s one of your biggest pet peeves?
Drivers who refuse to use their turn signals. Random nail clipping (Honey, I am talking to you!) Obnoxious "look at me" people, arrogant jerks and OMG "Pop tart" cheerleaders chicks.

6. What’s one of your nervous habits?
I pick at my zits or scabs. Or my cuticles. Yep, I am one of those. I also have trouble making eye contact if I am really uncomfortable.

7. What side of the bed do you sleep on? If I am in the bed alone, I'm in the middle. Otherwise, I live on the left!

8. What was your first stuffed animal & its name?
A monkey named Ralph. I still have him in a keepsake box.

9. What’s the drink you ALWAYS order at Starbucks?
I really don't get the big crave with Starbucks. Give me some fro-yo over that mess any day!

10. What’s the beauty rule you preach.. but never ACTUALLY practice?
Washing/moisturizing my face. Dang it, I just can't get in a routine of doing it!

11. Which way do you face in the shower? I start facing away from the shower, but I move around.

12. Do you have any ‘weird’ body ‘skills’?
I don't... think... so... (looking at husband) He can wiggle his pecks - but I can't do that :)

13. What’s your favorite ‘comfort food’/food that’s ‘bad’ but you love to eat it anyways? 
Fried chicken! Hmmm... with mashed potatoes! Dang, now I'm hungry! ;)

14. What’s a phrase or exclamation you always say?
"Shut yo face!"

15. Time to sleep- what are you ACTUALLY wearing?
A tank and boxers or sometimes pajama pants

Louisville Medium...

I am posting this for no other reason than to document my experience. I feel certain I will not remember these details forever and there may come a time when I want to revisit the messages I received...

Upon sitting down, the medium began his speech and explained the tiers of spirits that typically come through - to distinguish between child, parent, grandparent, etc. Although he advised that most often, the spirit we want to connect with isn't the 1st one to come through, he instantly spoke of a father energy present. I began to cry almost immediately. He went on to speak of an older male & female with the father energy along with a small child. We gathered the couple was mostly likely my dad's mother and father - but it is unclear who the child could be. Perhaps a distant cousin or someone who died as a child long before my dad - but was there to greet his spirit once he passed.

Once the medium settled on my dad, he asked me why my dad was laughing. He asked a couple of times, but I did not understand. Apparently, my dad said I was the last person he ever expected to visit a medium - mostly because I talk to him so often and he feels a strong connection to me already. I guess it's ironic that our connection is strong and yet, I felt the need to seek clarity and answers through a spiritual medium.

One of the first messages I received was an acknowledgement of the relationship with my husband. My dad said I ask him about it all the time and have longed to have his blessing - which he gave during my session. Although I felt in my heart I'd had the blessing long ago, it was good to receive this confirmation.

Next, he spoke of distance - both physical land distance and relationship distance prior to his passing. Both were true, as I hadn't seen or spoken to my dad in five years. He apologized for his role in that and stated he had every intention to reconnect with me at some point. We just never had the chance.

The medium tried several times to go back to the day of my dad's passing - but my dad was reluctant to do so. When I shared it was a suicide, the medium instantly understood, stating that even in the spirit world, it is difficult for loved ones to take responsibility or own up to taking their own life. My dad said something that struck me as odd - he said it was not planned and that he had no concept of dying young. This upset me and I could not wrap my head around how he could say something like that.

The medium continued. He said my father showed him three places: 1. a house where he placed himself, 2. an apartment where a friend (and someone he confided in) lived, and 3. a pull-up roadside motel from a parking lot view. Although he never showed the medium who was inside, it eluded to the fact that his wife may have been cheating and that whatever the connection was amongst these 3 places, they contributed to my dad's state of mind the day he took his own life. Wow. I was dumbfounded. I'd always suspected his wife had done something and/or cheated simply because of how unaffected she was by his death and how seemingly quick she moved on to a new man. This was confirmation that she was, in part, responsible.

The medium acknowledged my dad's mental health condition and said he may have genetically passed it onto a child - a male child. Could it be Pam's son? I don't know. Although my dad had the condition though, it was compacted by the scenario above being played out and a downward spiral ultimately led my dad to kill himself. The medium looked at me and said, "Did your dad shoot himself... in the head?" I was floored by his spot-on accuracy. He went onto to explain the entire surrounding. The fact that my dad crossed over concrete (his driveway) prior to the suicide was significant in that once he crossed over, the decision had been made and there was no turning back. From that point, there is nothing anyone could have said or done to change his mind.

While my dad mentioned several times how often I communicate with him and try to get answers, the medium reiterated that my dad wants to be in the supportive father role, not as a guide of sorts. Case in point: I'd been waffling about what to do about my mom and even during my session, I asked the medium to try to gain insight from my dad about her. He refused. He would not utter a word about my mother and, in fact, he acted as if the medium and I did not mention her and moved onto a new subject. Perhaps it was too painful. Perhaps it was out of a respect. Perhaps he just didn't want to be in the middle of that mess anymore. Some days, I wish I wasn't either.

One of the final major confirmations I received from the medium had to do with a dish/bowl in my home that made me think of my father. I sat there clueless. The medium went onto say that it was a porcelain item (the same material found on a toilet) but it had a rough texture on part of it. I thought about it for a min and then it hit me. In my closet, there is a heart-shaped porcelain dish with a rough texture on its top. Inside is my dad's watch, one of only a few things I have of his. I was amazed at how accurate this portrayal was because only my husband knows about it.

Throughout the session, at times, the medium kind of "took on" my dad's persona. I'd forgotten how vain my dad could be about his hair, his looks, his appearance - and even those around him. One of the things he kept saying throughout the session was, "I still look good!" Yep, that's my daddy... He also cracked on the medium's shoes saying he didn't like them and that they looked cheap. Wow, way to warm up to the medium! At times, I became a bit frustrated with this banter and at a certain point, the medium said, "Your dad says you're getting aggravated with him... but he's only doing this to show you it's really him and not just any "fatherly" spirit. It's to give you confirmation it's really your dad coming through". I think my chin sat open for a few minutes since he read my mind and he explained why this aspect of the session was so important.

At the end of the day, this was an amazing experience. I would never have dreamed I would go to a medium or even believe in their capability to connect with loved ones who have passed. But I honestly believe this medium was the real deal. The session gave me a certain type of closure that had eluded me for 8 years. I know, for sure, my dad is with me. That's all I really needed to know.

MIA

 

My poor blog. It's been so neglected lately. Life just gets in the way sometimes... Between sickness, grad school, work, pregnancy fake-outs - well, a sista is just tired!

 

This week has been uber long. Like every day, I look at the clock and swear it should be like 1-2 hours later than it is. I even took Monday off to have a 3-day weekend and a shorter workweek this week, but that hasn't helped. I'm still exhausted and just... burned out!

 

On another note, I am pretty excited that cooler weather has arrived. I was so sick of hot, humid, sticky weather (especially after enduring over 5 weeks without A/C) No, thank you! I will now change my preference to Fall weather, please and thank you! :) These 70's feel really good!

 

That's all I have. My brain is fried. Here's to getting my blog back on track!