The last few weeks have been stressful. Getting the totaled car situated and finding another in a short period of time was very overwhelming. Then, work has been slammed lately and I find myself frazzled more days than not at the office. In comparison to the place I was working previously, I welcome the opportunity to be busy and productive. However, sometimes, I do not know when enough is enough - and I tend to bite off more than I can chew at times, just for the sake of standing out and/or impressing the higher ups. A blessing and a curse, I suppose. But, it's led to some mental exhaustion and I think my body is feeling it too.
This is the second time in a month where I have been experiencing leg pain/cramps/strain/awfulness. A couple weeks ago, it was painful - but bearable. I could walk on it... it just was uncomfortable. Then this past Thursday, I was coming up our stairs and, when I reached the top, I stepped "wrong" and immediately felt pain in my hamstring. On Friday, I went to work - and now that I work downtown and have quite a trek from the parking lot all the way around the building to get to the elevator and up to my floor - it was not fun. By midday, I had to end up leaving work and barely made it to my car. In fact, my leg "cracked" really loudly as I was getting into my car and I thought, "Oh #@@%#.... now I'm really going to be jacked up!" Surprisingly, I think the crack may have helped the hamstring issue - only to be followed up with a severe tight calf muscle that will not subside. It's like having a constant worst-charlie-horse-of-your-life-kinda-feeling.... I am NOT digging it. It's now Sunday and I have been a total grump bucket to my husband who is only trying to help me. I should be napping - but instead - I am sitting here, dreading the week ahead and wondering how I am even going to walk functionally enough to make it into the office tomorrow.
I know I am out of shape. I have known that for a while. But, I need to find a way to get these muscle strains/cramps/pains out of my life. I just started seeing a new doctor and, after talking to her about all the trauma I've experienced in relation to my legs (3 falls in a six month period last year), I think she is, at least, willing to try some treatments to make it better and maybe then, I can finally find the energy/strength to get back in the gym and build some muscle strength again. For now, I just want to shake this limp and be able to walk like a woman again...
